The Unintended Lover

Hi guys, I'm back. It's been a month since I've been unemployed. These past few days I've realized that my body is not used to just sit around and relax at home. I also worry that if I continue to stay home (and rest), baka mas lumaki pa ako. So to prevent this, I applied in one of the BPO companies here in Davao. Hopefully I'll get accepted and enjoy the work.

In my dormant state, when at home, I can't help but use my Grindr to find nearby cuties and PLU's (People Like Us). I was not used to seeing a lot of people (especially young teens) online in Grindr that time and most especially, at our place. One by one they messaged me, I messaged back. The funny thing is, there's this one guy that stands out the most. I enjoyed talking with him (he's in his 30-40 something). He said he had a car and he would like to meet. It was the first time that I would meet up a guy with a car on Grindr so I got curious and went ahead with the plan.

Evening came and I waited at our agreed spot for 10 minutes and at last, he arrived. He was using a Toyota Hilux (Pick up Truck) and stopped in front of me. He rolled down his window and he invited me in. At first I couldn't see him clearly, and when he turned on the lights I saw his face. He was chinito. Matanda na pero bata pumorma. He was wearing a shirt, shorts, glasses and a baller cap, giving him the illusion that he's still in his mid-20's pero in reality, mas matanda pa sya. Hahaha.

We talked, shared laughs, and bonded with each other. Nothing sexual happened. He said he was from Japan and that he was just having his vacation here in the Philippines. He's already a Japanese citizen btw. We continued our talk in his house which was 'above average' if you ask me. He even thought that I looked like one of those brazilian-japanese guys he sees on japan dahil daw moreno ako.

Everything went well after that. He introduced me to his friends and his nephews (college dudes who are actually cuties too). He seems nice and he respects me. At this moment I already accepted his friend request on facebook (first time that I will do). I think I like him more and more each day. <3

P.S. Here are pictures of his nephews.

Oh diba? Pak Ganern! Hahahaha.

Resignation

As I watch my calendar, I see that I only have nine days left to stay with my current employer. It's been fun working here especially since this is my first job. I've feel like I've learned so much already. Things that are not taught in school. Experience is truly the best teacher.

I'm definitely going to miss this place. Food, Surfing, Party, even the scorching heat of the sun. I only have one thing left in my "to-do list" that I need to fulfill before leaving this place, and if you're an avid reader of my blog, you know what I mean. LOL. (Hopefully it works out)

I'm looking forward that as I go back to Davao, I'll leave behind the wrong things that I did. Habits that we're not part of my priorities/goals when I applied for work here.

This is me, writing my history. This may be a bad choice, but at least it's my decision. Someday, I'll look at this as one of the best chapters of my life.

See you soon DAVAO! :) Lovelots.

-davaokiddo (davaokiddo@gmail.com)

CND: Katrabaho

Hello guys. Today I'm doing my favorite entry: CND or most famously known as Crush Ni Davaokiddo. I'm featuring Mr. I today, He's a co-worker of mine (of the lower rank). Unlike most of the employees that I commonly supervise (oldies), he's different because he's young, and he's refreshing to the eyes.

Without further ado, here he is:

We were drinking that time because it was a fiesta. I was even surprised that I met him there. It was pure coincidence. Sorry it was only glimpses/snapshots of him. Wala kasi siyang facebook or any social media account. 

I'm actually attempting to invite him to Siargao. For him to come with me there. Para naman mas masaya ang pag stay ko doon. LOL! Hope papayag sya..

That's all for now closets! Lovelots!

;)

-davaokiddo (davaokiddo@gmail.com)

Napahiya Ako

I’ll be writing this post in ‘mixed’ language so that I can fully express myself. So please bear with me. 

Inimbita kami ng aking katrabaho sa bahay nila. Apparently, bisperas nung day na yun (Bisperas is the term used for the day before an actual fiesta in a barangay here in our place). So yun, pagdating namin (7:42), kumain kami ng marami, especially yung sinabawan na carabao (it’s a common delicacy here). We shared laughs and fun stories as we ate (siyempre mga barako halos lahat ng kasama ko). After that, binigyan kami ng isang case ng red horse beer. It’s common protocol na bigyan ang mga bisita ng alak after eating (most especially during fiesta). I guess it’s normal tradition for all Filipinos.

So yun nagkainuman kaming lahat. Take note na friends ko lahat ng mga lalaking nakainuman ko. Then here comes my boss. Siya yung tipong barako talaga. Pala inom. Mahilig mambabae. In short, he’s like a GOD for most of male Filipinos kasi naman he has all. Women, Money, Power, etc. He also shared life lessons like this: Pag ang babae daw tumanda, nag de-depreciate yung value, pero kung ang lalaki daw ang tumanda, mas lalong tumataas ang market value. Then all of them would start bursting out laughter. Turns out, joker din si Sir.

(11:00). We had finished two and a half cases of red horse beer already and a lot of us we’re already drunk. (Besides me of course). Then it happened. Ito yung pinaka kinaiinisan kong mangyari sa akin during an inuman (or any given occasion, because this happens a lot). My boss questioned my sexuality. In front of my f*cking friends. Hindi ko alam kung paano umabot sa point na yun. Basta ang alam ko lang, tumingin sya sa akin and then he opened it up. “Dex (not my real name), bayot ka no? Sulti nalang gud”. At that point I always do what I normally do. Look the person that addressed me straight in the eyes, just be quiet and smile. I knew he was drunk, but I can’t help to be angry. Angry with him and myself included. Then anger turned to humiliation. Humiliation to shame.

All of my friends were laughing, and I was about to walk out that time, but that would be too obvious. Sanay na akong makarining ng remarks about my sexuality but coming from him, my boss, one that I already considered my father, it hurts. It also hurts when your friends join in the fun and tease you. I told myself at that exact moment to be strong. To never show them that they are hurting me inside. Then he addressed a friend (the one sitting next to him) and told him: “Bayot jud na si dex?”, and then my friend replied: “Ambot lang sir. Siya lang ang makatubag ana?”

I’ve been a very bad person. Done drugs and alcohol. All in an effort to blend in and hide perfectly in my closet. But I guess my methods were wrong. Maybe it’s because of this face? The way I move? My voice? The way I talk? Oftentimes I blame my parents for not letting me go outside when I was still young. Kasi iniisip ko na baka it’s because of my lack of socialization with other young boys when I was a kid kaya ako naging ganito. That maybe, if I had played sports, been naughty, etc, I could have been a man that they always wanted me to be. I always think that the way I am today is because of how my parents raised me back then, and not because of genetics (pathetic right?). Although I have gay relatives from my father’s side (including an uncle) which makes it more factual to believe that it’s because of the genes.

How would opening up and telling the world about ‘me being gay’ any better? Would the pain from being discriminated be less if I step out of my closet and inform everyone na bakla ako? I also hate myself for the fact na I take it as an insult when someone tells me “Are you gay? Bakla ka ba?” Yes I’m gay, and sadly, I am ashamed of it.

Sometimes, I always imagine what would happen if I suddenly disappear. Hide from everyone that I ever knew. Have a new life under a new name. Start over. Meet new friends but this time, I would be open about my sexuality. I would tell the world that I am gay. Would I be happy? Would that solve my life-long problem? The only thing that’s keeping me from doing this is because of my family. I grew up in a household full of love and respect. I don’t want to rob them years of misery.

I guess I already said too much. Kung may makausap lang sana ako regarding these things I wouldn’t feel lonely inside. So instead of talking to someone, I share it through this blog. This blog keeps me sane. It’s like my bestfriend already. “A really deaf and mute friend” to be specific.

This is davaokiddo. Signing off. You can always email me at: davaokiddo@gmail.com

D Morvie

I'm currently at D Morvie (near Bangkerohan) and I can't believe that WiFi here is so fast!! I guess it's because it's 4:00 in the afternoon 'at wala pa masyadong customers'.

Maybe you're all wondering why I'm here right? I'm here because I had a very good time with a friend of mine before I leave Davao. Hahahaha! he's young, 21 I think, and he gives me the chills. He's oriental looking, and possess a jock type of body. (SHET). First time kong nakahawak ng jock type na body (aside from my cousin). Mas matigas yung katawan niya. Tapos yung muscles, Oh my God. Yung parang binata na physique na alam mong sipag na sipag sa physical work (he's a basketball player btw).

We were having drinks that night. And he was already giving me subtle hints that he would want to have sex with me (like teasing me, touching me, telling mean jokes like "lubuton taka ron") and the list would go on forever. Hahaha. Pero mahal si kuya. I spent at least 1000 pesos (for drinks and pulutan), just to get him to bed (F*CK).

Pero he's worth it. Ewan ko ba. I really like straight guys compared to gay guys. Physicality wise, mas 'into sports/physical activity' kasi ang straight men compared to gay men.

Eto ang "proof of purchase" ko oh. Look. Hahahaha 

I just gave him a BJ because he's dick is too thick. (masakit po). His dick kinda reminds me of my cousin thought, weird. Pero I noticed na everytime he was 'about to cum', he moves away or positions his body down (nakakulob). I don't know kung bakit ayaw nyang magka orgasm. So I just masturbated myself inside the bathroom 'para matapos na'. An also weird thing I observed is that he keeps on shifting his body towards and away from me. He also changes from "kulob position" to "hayang position", with legs wide spread. Di ko talaga sya ma gets.

Moving on, my laptop's watch tells me it's already 4:34PM. 2 hours and 30 more minutes to go before I go out of here. Pwede pa ako makipag flirt kay kuya na nasa labas. I think he's fixing an AC unit. Haha. I wanted to capture a sharp picture pero parang nahalata niya ako eh kaya yun. Eto lang yung nakuha ko. Hahaha. (I also can't believe that there's a parking lot behind this building)

This is me, davaokiddo, saying farewell to Davao City again. I had a great time, but my wallet hurts so bad. :) Till next time closet gays! Lovelots! And more power to us!

Email: davaokiddo@gmail.com

My 3rd HIV Testing Experience (with VIDEO)

There have been changes in the screening process of HIV in the HACT Clinic from the time that I had my testing there. (See: HIV Testing at HACT).

For one, they now conduct the 'extraction of blood' from the clinic itself. It's good because people can now discreetly withdraw blood for the test without risking their identity from too much exposure. But take note that they only do this in the morning, so if you come late and arrive at the afternoon, you'll have to go down to the laboratory and have your extraction there.

The nurse that extracted blood from me was a bit nervous. She couldn't find the vein (because of my fats XD). There was also a drop of blood on the table, which made me jumpy. She didn't even bother changing the gloves from the previous patient then back to me (because she said that any remnant of the virus would be dead in seconds when in contact with air) can any medical professional confirm this? At that point I wanted to go to the laboratory downstairs rather than letting an 'inexperienced' nurse inject a needle in my vein.

To proceed, she got three (3) vials necessary for the different tests to be conducted if the patient is a positive (reactive) or a negative (non-reactive). She also added that results can be given 2 hours after the procedure (as compared to the 2 days result last year).

After the extraction, she told me I can take my lunch, which I delightfully did (because I was so hungry) so, I took a ride going to Abreeza for lunch. I even met someone down the road. He was
really attractive (Robin Padilla aura), and a beefy body. Too bad I was taller than him though. Here he is.

After lunch, I went back inside the hospital to see if the results we're okay, and sure enough (God is good), I had another NR (Non-reactive) result again. "Thank you Lord".

I actually have a video of the whole process (sorry for my bad pronounciation/grammar). Through this, I hope people like me (closet gays) with no gay friends of other people to accompany them, look at this video as a guide on how to get to the clinic by themselves. Don't be afraid to get tested. :) It's always better to know your status.

By the way, if you want a disguise, a good example would be a photo shown below. The security wouldn't mind the facemask (maybe they got used to it, cause there are lots of people wearing masks).

This is davaokiddo, getting ready for tomorrow's event (Alcatraz Penal Bar, large LGBT event daw). Not sure how true is that. Not even sure if I'll come. To the people who are interested in accompanying me, you can always email me at davaokiddo@gmail.com.

Lovelots,

Davaokiddo

You can watch more here. Sorry for the bad video/audio/grammar etc. It's my first time to do this. At least you now know my voice. :)

CND: T Brothers

Hello my avid readers. Today I'm going to do another blog entry entitled CND: Crush Ni Davaokiddo. CND offers a wide array of my crushes (mostly in Davao). So if you're the investigative type, just check out my other posts labeled 'CND'.

As I was conducting my daily routine here in Davao (scrolling on my facebook newsfeed) I came across a post from a cousin of mine. She posted a picture from 5 years ago with his uberly handsome classmate (I think), which could also be his crush. So I did some digging and found many pictures from his profile that is worth sharing here on my blog. 

He's a moreno type of guy. Cute. Radiant personality. I actually met him in person back then. I wonder when would we meet again. LOL. Here he is..

T1

Notice the two photos? Back then he didn't have a tattoo, but now he has one. (on his right arm at the second photo) which kinda makes him look hot and matured, as compared to his young and cute face. He also gained weight. But he's still gwapo <3 <3.

He's also a basketball player in ADDU. Look.

I think a lot of ateneans know this guy. So if you're an atenean and reading this right now, kindly send my warmest regards to him - davaokiddo.

Next one in the spotlight is his relative (his brother I think). They have the same last name, although I'm not sure if they're brothers. Cousins maybe? They look similar kasi eh, so I assumed that they're brothers. Look :)

T2

Gwapo rin diba? Hahaha. Parang may pagka Derek Monasterio naman ang mukha nya. Yummy. Hahaha. Eto pa pic niya sa baba. Bugbog sarado. Pero gwapo pa rin!! :)

And lastly, a picture of him and his physique. :)

I'm pretty sure they're known in the upper class of people here in Davao. I also know that they attended private schools since elementary to college. 

Pwede na silang gawing bida sa pinoy version ng The Vampire Diaries dba? Stefan and Damon Salvatore? At ako si Elena. Hahaha. Peace out bros!

That's all for now folks! To all the closets out there, be sure to subscribe on my blog. :)

-davaokiddo (davaokiddo@gmail.com)